why are you looking at me like that?

How to know your own worth and boost your-self esteem | Metro News

 

Why are you looking at me like that? 

I walk along the side walk daily and all I hear in my mind is... can u hear me? can u see me? what are you thinking of me? have I wore clothes you don't like? am I not what u want me to be? am I not enough? ISN'T IT TIME IT STOPPED?!


what is self esteem? self esteem is and also probably one of the biggest and most hardest parts of mental health in the world. Self esteem isn't a small act or item in the world it is a huge stigma that is also not spoke about enough. It has many characteristics behind it. Also many reasons why people always put themselves down.

You often hear a lot of people talking about how they have low self esteem and its hard once you have this thought or certain things said to you to remove it from your mind. Many low self esteem issues stem from bullying, comments, remarks and low self worth.

Its currently 3rd march 2022; as I'm sat writing this, I'm currently in the state of mind where I don't like my looks my body my features but yet were still sat here reading items online and seeing images of everyones body shape, peoples clothes, peoples other lives and peoples classes, why is it still being remarked on? 



self esteem is formed from many things I have attached an image to the left of this to show where self esteem can stem from. Self esteem can be good and bad depending on the way you're dealing with it as a person yourself.

in this blog I will try to show you what your real worth is and that is that no mater what life gives us whether its "lemons" or not, you're worth so much more then your giving yourself credit for.... what do I see? what do I feel? what do I hear? 

what do I see? are you using your social media platforms to look at yourself and find yourself looking and constantly comparing yourself to everyone else? if so why? why are you putting yourself through the hate and punishment of a bad self worth?

As a 29 year old, I can hold my hands up and say I use a lot of social media and social platforms to interact with people from Facebook, Instagram, twitter, snapchat.. and ill always have bad self worth due to past experiences with bullies over my height weight and appearances. but I still continue to dip down know I'm a good person and I know I have a good self worth but finding it takes so much work and effort. ive never had any confidence in my looks my body or my appearance I'm forever seeing celebs on social media or friends or people ive never seen or me or spoke to but yet I'm comparing myself to there looks appearance etc. why am I notes god looking as them? why isn't my teeth as white? why are they skinnier or have a perfect body compared to me? why are they healthier looking then me? why are they living there best life and I'm struggling? thing is deep down were all going through the same but because of self worth it is harder to see it. Nobody out there is perfect or not once experienced this feeling. 

what do I feel? are you using peoples appearance to judge yourself? I know I am. I often see people in nice clothes nice shoes nice sunglasses amazing fashion, yet here I am in this or looking like this. were all human and we all have our own sense of style and to be honest with you whatever you do in life your be judge so why compare yourself to someone else appearance when you can just be you? our own sense of worth and style is worth so much more then your letting yourself believe... if you like something buy it try it wear it embrace it.. don't listen to that voice on your head saying 'everyones watching you' 'everyones judging you' for all you know and think ive done it before ive looked at people and thought I like that jacket, I like them shoes that's a really nice jumper... but because of self worth you won't think that or I won't were think of the bad without a second guess... 'my jumpers too small there judging me' 'my shoes aren't as smart as everyone else is wearing' its not always what people think you could have influenced someone to go buy what youre wearing. if you see someone looking take a second to change that mind frame and think maybe they like what I'm wearing. in this day in ages social platforms are used to encourage to look perfect at all times. but we are allowed to be ourselves... wear joggers and a cheap pair of trainers. wear your hair up have your hair Styled how u want.... I get my haircut every 1/2 weeks as I feel I look horrible if my hairs grown its stuck in my head but deep down nobody notices like I do as its my own past and self esteem that's judging me not the human life!





Am I not what you want me to be? ive tried to fit in but honestly how do I do it without feeling worthless? LET ME STO YOU THERE!! don't think for a second you have to fit in to this world to be accepted. This world has a population of 7,953,952,577 people currently in it and you ARE 1 OF THEM! why you trying to fit in when you was put on this planet to be YOU?! don't wear something or dress like someone or act like your someone you're not to fit in. be you wear what you feel is comfy and fits you be the person you was bought here to be. you will fit in more as yourself then being someone your not! smile with that smile u have, walk with them shoes you're wearing, show off in them clothes you're styling. be you. be that person everyone loves! you're an individual for a reason and that reason is because of your self worth and that self worth is YOUR IMPORTANT & YOU MATTER. please don't go to sleep tonight feeling tomorrow you have to wake up and be someone who's perfect. IF you want to wear joggers and a baggy hoodie or you want to wear a dress or you want to wear a suit or want to wear them shoes or that hat or the outfit you picked u from the shop the other day you do that you be you you show off to the world who you are.... its time that you realised who matters in this world and that is you! 

Dont fit in because you feel you have to fit in for you. And only YOU

Self-esteem is how we value and perceive ourselves. It's based on our opinions and beliefs about ourselves, which can sometimes feel really difficult to change.

Your self-esteem can affect whether you:

  • like and value yourself as a person
  • are able to make decisions and assert yourself
  • recognise your strengths and positives
  • feel able to try new or difficult things
  • show kindness towards yourself
  • move past mistakes without blaming yourself unfairly
  • take the time you need for yourself
  • believe you matter and are good enough
  • believe you deserve happiness.
above is a piece from mind.org.uk 

if your currently suffering from any self worth or self esteem then I will drop some links below to read up on and hopefully it helps you and also I hope this blog does too... 

https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/self-esteem/about-self-esteem/https://

www.verywellmind.com/what-is-self-esteem-2795868

https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/self-help/tips-and-support/raise-low-self-esteem/


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thank you for taking time to read my blog ... 
stay safe and have an amazing rest of your day
Adam Wainwright




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