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The highest of heights will be never defeated by freights....🗻

Hey everyone, me again, making the return as usual. Hope you've all been keeping well? Been a fair while hasn't it? This blog is going to be a different one compared to normal.

RING RING RING! the alarm went off for my day, wasn't to sure how I felt to be honest but the feelings were mixed between happy emotional nervous anxious.. you name it today was the day I knew id feel them all compressed Into one... today was the day id been waiting for. It was Snowdon time!!

As you may or may not know I am a mental health advocate for a group called menunite. I did it for the group and to raise money with two of my best friends to help me motivate me and support me through it as I knew if I fell or felt defeated they would be there to help me and push me through the end. Josh & Ryan. The money we raised as a team came to around £250 and therefore in that amount of Money it can help go towards food for someone or counselling session for them. So with the money we raised someone somewhere will be getting the right support and guidance to a more positive path....

The morning came of the snowdon climb we had our climbing gear our resources and our mindset to go, was we prepared? well that is a question with probably 1000000 answers ahahaha! we left our location to drive there at 12:59pm in the afternoon of the 21st august 2022, arrived at Cant Gwynant at 4:25pm the weather was extremely warm, not many cars about and the view was stunning from the first few steps... 

It got to 4:43pm and we had found as perfect spot to look out on and it was breathtaking, amazing, peaceful, quiet, relaxing and just damn right stunning... ( and the view from the mountain 😜😉) jokes aside the view just went for miles. The sky was blue, the clouds were fading and the lake was clear... the sun rolled down the hill and the motivation became more and more exciting. If it gave us anything it gave us more hope and lifted the spirits to keep climbing....

" just keep climbing, Just keep climbing climbing climbing..."

4:45pm we ad our first little stop as we found a place more stunning in real life then the picture could ever do justice... we found a water stream and damn the view on that was breath taking I didn't know one place could have such amazing scenes behind the camera.... the water was clear you could hear people laughing, joking, kids laughing, birds tweeting it was the perfect spot to rest even just for a second. We stopped to have a drink and take in the view and listen to how peaceful around the river it was, and it was enough to capture the moment not just by camera but also by memory. 

it got to 5:22pm and we saw the clouds rolling in as it was going to start getting darker quicker the higher we got so we proceeded to cary on, the exhaustion, the tiredness and the feelings of emotion and overwhelmingness began to kick in. just talking up and seeing all of the views behind us and how far we had walked up already was enough to show us progress and passion this climb. We came this far we need to continue. We would always ask each other how we felt and how was we? lets be honest... we was fuc*ed at this stage.... but we continued to keep each others morals spirits and moral up and said 'yeah im good bro are you? we got this haven't we come on lets keep coping were nearly there' (yeah we was not anywhere near close) haha! positive minds tho hey?! 

5:29 it was rest time the tiredness and aching kicked in, we didn't realise how much it would take it out of us, however the longer we rested the harder it would be to carry on, a quick drink of water and we moved on and carried on with the walk. 5:55pm and we wasn't far off the last part of our uphill climb... yeah uphill we still had to get back down yet, damnit!! we could see the end dish of the uphill climb but we still knew we had a long time to go maybe just over 40 mins - 1 hour to go. we had this we knew no matter what we was going to do this as a team. Start together finish together, never leave a soldier down. Not in my team anyway. 

We could feel the pain hitting us and the motivation became harder and harder as we got closer to the finish line... so to get the spirits back up.. I put music on... music with a beat behind it music with adrenaline, it worked we had a laugh about it and continued on our way. ( I dont own rights to the music played in the video )

WE found a sign named "Watkin" we knew we wasn't far off at all just the big part to go now, the fog was rolling in the rain started the temperature dropped, it wasn't going to be easy. Emotions began to highten and the journey became closer to a half way point of being at the top but not back down yet. we knew we could do it as we had each other, me josh and Ryan all had each others back and we knew from the start no matter how hard it got we wouldn't let each other far or drop without helping eachother back up and cheering them on. 

We reached here at 6:54pm time was catching up supper fast and we knew our time was limited before we wouldn't be able to see much more infant of us, come on lads we need to move... We made it the final bit to go.. we had to stop for a minute as the emotions kicked in badly... I was so proud of josh too, even tho he couldn't go much more he still got there and did absolute amazing he beat his fear and kicked life arse when it told him he couldn't.... because he could and did!! he told me and Ryan to carry on it wasn't much further but the clouds became strong and thick the fog was heavy and the rain was getting worse the higher we got... we made it as far up as we could to the top but with the clouds fog and rain as bad as it was we coolant see any further ahead of us and it as too dangerous to do it... my anxiety kicked in I was scared and I panicked and my anxiety was becoming worse.... it was the fear seeing the rocks falling and the not being able to see ash when I looked back.. where was he was he okay I shouted but got no reply my heart sank as I thought something happened to my best friend... if he got hurt it would have been my fault for not staying with him. my anxiety took over I thought this is me this is how ill die. trying to be brave and achieve something and im just going to slide and fall as I won't be able to stop myself, with Ryans help and guidance step by step shuffle b shuffle I managed to get back down. the shear overwhelming fear of feeling scared lost and worried we still got tot he top and did what we came to do. we made our way back down and all I slept doing was shouting josh and asking Ryan if he could hear him or see him.... no reply m anxiety was making me loose m breath my heart was hurting from the air pressure... how was I going to do this? we got further down and shouted josh again.... "omfg am I glad to hear you two i'm over here bro" he was okay he was safe and sound but I broke down with relief he was okay and the fact we did it and raised £250 for a mens mental health charity too. I had never felt so overwhelmed with feelings and emotions as I did that day...... 

WE MADE IT 8:27PM we got there we made it as a team.... 

now for our way back down.... well im not sure how long it took s or what time we even got down but we did it!! and im so fu*king happy to be back on solid firm ground.... well it wasn't solid or firm as me and josh know Ryan fell over a fair few times which lifted our spirits and made us laugh.

josh and Ryan thank you both for joining me on my quest up snowdonia and thank you for supporting me all the way up and down Icoulkdnt have done it without you both, one of life's biggest and scariest things ive ever done and you've done it with me. 

Snowdon - 21.08.2022 COMPLETED 💚

thank you to everyone who supported us with money, messages, and support through out. It meant the world <3. Big love to you all.

thank you for reading and listening to another of my blogs.

if you have any questions or want a chat my socials are on twitter : @_Addz20

and any men who need that need any support on there mental health please reach out talk and Join us at menunite on Facebook

take care till next time 

addz x